I often talk about how I don't really have masks, that what you see is what you get. This in many cases is true. But at the same time, there is a strong degree of control underneath it all. I can be as open as I am because I know that nothing is going to get past that internal wall. A somewhat recent comment by one close friend about how she would like to see me drunk got me thinking about control
. Another close friend posting about the song "Silent All these Years" by Tori Amos got me thinking anymore. Finally, yet another close friend talking about feelings of disconnection dovetailed into some of the thoughts I'd been having. I don't have anything to say about all this right now but I wanted to note it so that I don't forget later.