I'm reading Exile's Valor due to the generosity of k_crow and lerryn lending it to cindygerb and I. It's a good read and I enjoy learning much more about Alberich. My problem that I seem to be having is that a little bit past the halfway point, some rather negative events happen that we know *must* happen because of what happens in books set later. They're certainly not presented as negative at this time though. But now, as I read the book, the filk song "Her Father's Eyes" is going on continual repeat in the back of my brain. It's a rather melancholy song and sung well enough to convey it well.
How tenuous the boundary between love and hate. How easy to mistake the first and learn the truth too late. How hard to bear what brings to mind mistakes that we despise And when I look into her face, I see her father’s eyes.
He tried to steal away my throne, he tried to rule my life. And I am not made to forgive a cowed and coward wife. My love became my enemy, who sought his Queen’s demise And when I look into her face, I see her father’s eyes
Poor child, we battled over her as two dogs with a bone. And I should not see his treachery in temper tantrums thrown. I should not see betrayal where there’s not but childish lies. But when I look into her face, I see her father’s eyes.
Now, how am I to deal with this rebellion in my soul? I cannot treat her fairly when my own heart is not whole. I truly wish to love her, but I’m not so strong or wise And when I look into her face, I see her father’s eyes.