Torin/Darren WhoEver (wolfieboy) wrote,
Torin/Darren WhoEver
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Delusions

I'm writing this to fulfill the third bullet of Theory of Journals or Why do *I* keep a journal?. I don't know if I'll remember this, so I want to write it down.

In talking today, Cindy and I confronted some hard truths. Or actually, we brought what we thought were truths to the light of day and recognized them for delusions.


The first is my thought that Cindy eventually would understand and would be able to accept my version of poly as an acceptable choice and might even take on a lover herself if things worked out just right.


The second is Cindy's thought that I would eventually satisfy my need for this poly thing and that I would settle down. Settling down here meaning that I wouldn't need other loves and not only would she be my only partner but that she would be my only lover.


Both of us have categorically stated that such would not be the case. Yet we persist in thinking it. In some ways, it's the only way to cope with what we're trying to go through.
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